(((((((Callie))))))) Congrats on the baby!

I think jealousy is normal & what's awesome is that you're questioning it. You realize it's an ugly emotion but you are justified in feeling the way you are. Our media consists of AIRBRUSHED images. I sometimes look at "Cosmo" & feel obese but what is it the t-shirt says? "Only eight women in the world have supermodel bodies"?

It bugged me that the last guy I lived with had porn consisting mostly of file names with the word 'teen' in them. I was jealous and, most of the time, I would think about it and become rational, however I knew my hackles rose mainly because I was 29 & he was 24. It parallels your feelings as a "growing mama" with his "choice" in porn.

And, to agree with BigBear57 for the 64,000th time this year, most of the porn available is for "Barely Legal!111!!!!" & for some reason, society's porn providers (and the profit margin, one must assume) have provided us with very skinny women for us to fantasize about at all times.

I sometimes look at Pam Anderson and marvel at her tiny hips. She's genetically blessed but somehow decided that her body would be enhanced by doubling her weight by adding PDFs on her upper torso. She has admitted that it was a retarded thing to do but would she have the money she has now if it weren't for those breasts?

*sigh*

I love Pixies people because they know the world is nicely viewed with red-coloured glasses but realize reality is also a pretty cool option.

Lixy, do you have any oxygen left?