talking about it more will, well... it'll sorta desensitize you to it, so i'd suggest you talk some more about it with him. i can see you think you are overreacting and i'd have to agree. it bother's you, and that's cool and totally natural, but like you said it happened a long time ago, before you even started dating, let alone fell in love.

and to get yourself to stop obsessing and bitching about it? when you talk about it, ask him to tell you straight up if he'd ever do it again and to lay out exactly how he feels about you. then, take him at his word. trust him. if you find you can't believe him, then perhaps there are other, deeper issues that this secret has exposed....something maybe you are subconsciously tacking on to this issue.

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