(((((((AV)))))) Hope the pain starts to subside soon .... I think that is probably why some suggest that you don't contact him for awhile, to give yourself some time to heal .... different people heal in different ways, but a good number of us need time and distance to heal from such an event, however, it may not be the best choice for you (at least not at this time) .... hope you figure out what to do to feel the best you can during this time.