I find you to be hypocrite, typical of most christians. In your story, it is ok for christians to use porn because you're not commiting the act that the actors are, but they are sinning and going to hell. You are just using them like everyone else, but shirk the accountablity, by saying you're saved and forgiven by the grace of christ. What you really are are coward who don't want to face the consequences of your actions.