Done trying
 

For those of you who don't know me... or care about me... please disregard this thread.... the rest... proceed with caution... LOL

Let me tell you a story...

In April it was announced that one of my favorite Country Artists (Trace Adkins) was headed to my area for an appearance at the fair. OH yeah.. I was excited... tickets went on sale at 9 am on a Saturday morning... tickets available in person.. on the phone.. and on the net... since I wasn't able to get to the location that the tickets were on sale at.. I thought.. surely one of the other methods would work... WELL.. SIX hours later... I finally get thru on the net... order 2 tickets... and hit submit.. wait.. wait.. wait.. and then... it tells me.. NOPE.. tells me that the system crashes..!!!!!!! So.. I continue the redial again.. and again.. only to find out that the seats are all SOLD OUT!!! I was pissed.. not happy at all... especially when I get home to find out that their net company charged me for the tickets that I never got...

SO... the following monday.. I call.. raise hell... and they come thru.. 2 THIRD ROW tickets... so I contact the fan club.. pay my membership fee... and by the end of the day.. I have a back stage pass!!! WOOOHOOO

NOW... to figure out who would go with me... remember... I don't have anyone in my life.. haven't for years... Guess I am just not the date material.. anyway.. I degress..

I wanted STO to come with me.. even mentioned it to him... but.. as we are all painfully aware.. that wasn't meant to be... (it should have been a sign)...

I then ask a friend at work... he wasn't able to go.. since his father is dying of Cancer and took a turn for the worse.. requiring him to travel to see him... (this should have been a sign)

I ask another friend.... she can't.. she has to babysit her grandson... (this sould have been a sign)

I ask another friend... she has a family reunion to attend.. she can't go (this should have been a sign)

I ask another friend... he can't go.. just got a job working nites at Walmart.. (this should have been a sign)..

I ask my mom... she can't go.. is in too much pain.. (this should have been a sign)..

I ask my best friend (who I know doesn't care for country music)... she agrees to go..

So......... we head out to go.. tickets in hand.. back stage pass secure...

45 minute drive to the fair.. no problem.. good opportunity to catch up with my best friend... right...

well.. 45 minutes turns into an hour... the traffic is HORRIFIC... 3 miles from the fair grounds.. it is bumper to bumper... 1 hour turns into 2... driving around the radius of the fair grounds... 2 hours.. turns into THREE.... by that point.. the meet & greet is over.... the concert begins.. (I can hear it from the window of my car)...

and I finally give up... and drive the 45 minutes home.. drop off my friend.. and head home to cry as I type this..

The whole time.. I am fighing road rage.. pissed as hell... mad at myself... made as hell that STO wasn't with me... tho knowing that he was probably up above laughing... shruggin...


*sigh*...

I am just plain fucking tired on sooooo many levels... the fact that I miss the one event that I had waited months for... the fact that the ones I asked to go with me didn't feel enough for me to do so... the fact that I don't have someone in my life to share these things with... the fact that AGAIN I go to bed alone... I am just tired... done...

I am so sorry that happened to you. I know nothing I could ever say would help. After the fuss i raised earlier this month with my Clay Aiken concert, reading this has made me treasure it even more. I am crying with you. *hugs*

jennaflower,

Wow! Maxibummer! I am SO sorry that not one damned thing broke your way!

((((((((((jennaflower))))))))))

(((((((((((Jenna))))))))))))))) I'm sorry. Right now the world is dumping buckets on me too and I understand how angry and tiring it can be trying to get out from under it all. But we have something that STO did not.....hope. Hope that someday, maybe not tomorrow but someday, things will be clearer, brighter, better. Now sucks, but now is temporary. Just hold on. You have people who love you and count on you (even when you can not always count on them) to be there for them. I count on you and I hope you know you can count on me too (lol at first I typed you can cunt on me :p).

((((Jennaflower))))---Maybe this is a sign,to buy that record "Signs",I think
that it was by Simon & Garfunkel(sp?) Irish

((((((jenna)))))) That must have been so disappointing. I'm really sorry to hear this happened. :(

jenna.....I am so sorry to hear aboutyour shitty evening. But please remember that it's always darkest before the dawn ~ and tomorrow should bring new opportunities.

((((jenna))))

Jenna, I'm very sorry to hear that this went badly for you and you weren't able to get to the concert. But you've got lots of supporters here....my best to a super person.

((((((((Jenna))))))))

:(

I can only imagine how frustrating this has been for you. Wish I could be there because I have a huge warm hug here for you ((((((((((Jenna)))))))))).

Hope you feel better soon.

Jenna, you've had a huge disappointment. I know how that can make all the rest of the shit in your life feel absolutely overwhelming. I understand how you can throw up your hands and say "why bother, I'm done trying".

I also know that, in my own life, when I've been able to relax and stop trying so hard, that's when the best things have eventually found me. It's when I wasn't looking so hard, that I found.

You've got lots of friends and supporters here, caring for you and wishing you the best. Knowing that you are worthy and deserving. I am among those folks. Hang in there, you are NOT alone.

oh sweetie what a Murphy's evening. I suppose the only way to go is up from there (((((((((((((((((( Jenna)))))))))))))))))))

jennaflower, I'm really sorry. Wish things had worked out for you. (((( HUGS ))))

Hot damn Hon when it rains it pours. I really hate the evening went to shit on you. There's gotta be something wrong with the folks up there in MO if you've had any troubles finding an escort You're one of the finest people I know. I've had these kinds of disappointments too I know it's rough on the heart and makes the mind reel in quandry. We all have these trials that really test us to the limits. I wish I could type something to erase the pain and correct the situation. I'm sending you encouraging thoughts and loving hugs. I'm always around if you need a shoulder, just know I have faith in you. It WILL get better.

oh honey!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am soooo sorry to hear of your evening... :-( I was hoping you were having a great time.
I know you're in a slump right now and what Lilith said above touched me as I am sure it touches you. Please keep your chin up baby girl......so you can see STO smiling down at ya.
I wish I could be there to hug you and hold ya up thru the low times but you know I am right here for you.

Love to ya.