Stress, depression, maybe just got the blues...........
 

The Pixies Power thread is for those trying to lose weight, so I thought maybe a thread for those of us needing a friendly ear for when we are stressed, depressed or just feeling down or blue or any other thing you might need.

So I'll start..................

I work retail and of course it's nuts right now. My boss and I keep trying to tell ourselves that we can only do so much and the DM will just have to be happy with it. But then I get home and I think of all the things I should or need to be doing but have been too tired to do. I do a little here and a little there but I'm still behind and some of it I'm behind on cause I was too lazy to get it done awhile back. When I'm tired I think more about things and then I get depressed. With the holidays I've been more tired then I usually am and more moody too. Sometimes I feel like I'm a rotten mother and a rotten girlfriend and sometimes I don't like myself. Somedays are better then others and I'm trying to stay positive.

((SDLS)) I've been on the edge all week this week. I think it will blow over.

I feel for you SDLS. Holidays are a very fun, enjoyable time of the year on one hand...and on the other they're stressful, difficult, and just plain chaotic.

I've been having a time. I failed out of the Program I was in...I'm being relatively positive and optimistic about it...I've decided it happened, I'll learn from it, and do better in the next one...but it still has me down. On top of that, my fiance and I are having a touch of problems...nothing relationship destroying by any means, and we're talking and getting through it and starting to get happier with one another, but it's still hard. We rarely ever, ever argue/fight, and even when we do it's severely minor and calm and never an ugly thing, but because we fight so little when we do it seems like a big thing even when it's not.

We're also dealing with tight fiances lately. It seems like no matter how we save, ends aren't meeting up. Add to that the holiday season, and it seems like we're dead broke and in a hole. We were also thinking about moving, which has just been nothing but stress.

For me, I don't right now have any huge, massive stressor in my life. But I have so many little ones, they're all adding up and it's really working on my patience and optimism. I suspect that's how it is with almost everyone, but that doesn't make me feel any less stressed.

Stress, depression, blues............. yeah, I'm probably somewhere in that neighborhood right now.

Nothing really new going on to put me in the funk I was in today (and right now for that matter). Basically it's all health related. Usually I keep a good outlook on things and have the attitude that, "I'm gonna win. Been battling this for almost 39 years, not going to give up now. It will be better tomorrow." That kind of stuff. The tomorrows just don't seem to be getting any better though. I had a day yesterday like I haven't had in, I don't know how long. I was energetic, strong, motivated, almost felt like my old self again. It was great.

Today came around and I know I should've at least called my doctor but I just didn't do it. Couldn't give a damn about it to tell you the truth.

I've been trying for almost two weeks to put together a list of things I want to do over the next five years but I get so far and I just ...........

Well, never mind. Just a bad day. Tomorrow will be better. I hope.

I can completely relate to this too sweetie. On Tuesday baby and I both cried all day and I felt like I was the worst person in the world. Thankfully, I got over that and the rest of the week has been much better. I'm sure it won't be the last time I feel like that though. For now we're just muddling on through and each day that I manage to be dressed before noon and eat three square meals I'm celebrating as a success.

Remember, don't sweat the little things. In the grand scheme of things they count for shit. :)

I go through phases where I don't feel very productive, or when I feel like my efforts are wasted because the end result is not what I was working so hard towards. What's the worst is when I am dead tired at the end of the day and think back about how I was rushing back & forth, feeling like I was working my ass off, and in reality...I was reacting to a situation that could've been avoided had I approached it from a different angle. I hate that. Those are the things that keep me up at night. As you've probably ascertained by now, I tend to overanalyze. If I don't fall asleep within minutes of going to bed...I will be awake for hours laying there. There are ways to deal with stress and sometimes they work, but I discovered that one needs to tweak the application of them to fit one's personal style. For example: meditation. I love the idea of meditating, but my mind soon wanders from it's peaceful zen garden into the above mentioned quagmire of work & life related stress and before I realize how far I've gone...my heart is pounding and I'm holding my breath. I've learned that the best way to avoid the wandering is to give my mind a task. The few times I take a moment to meditate, I recite "If" by Rudyard Kipling silently. If nothing else...the body sits still for a few minutes.

I suggest finding your "If" and distracting your mind for a bit. It's not escaping from your problems...it's refueling your body and formulating a battle plan for how to tackle them.

Lilith ~ Yes, I'm thinking it will all blow over after Christmas too. Your almost to school break, hang in there.

CrouchingBuddha ~ Yup, the little stress's can add up. Good Luck on your next program. My sis has been a nurse for over 15 yrs., my mom and I could'nt believe she made it thru school but she did!! Broke, yup, never fails the car takes a bite out of the budget. I used to move all the time, it sucked, glad I'm settling in, least I hope I am. :)

IowaMan ~ My days are like that, tomarrows can always be better. You've come a long way, don't give up now. My mom has struggled this last year with her health and I went thru a lot of guilt since I could'nt be there for her. I was thinking that next year when we drive thru Iowa to get home to SD that we could meet up with you and say HI. It's always fun meeting Pixies. :)

Lou ~ I remember those days after I had kiddo. We're mom's, we cry!!! :) It gets better after 6 months and sleep. :D I remember breastfeeding and one day I heard another baby cry in a store and I started leaking. Those bra pads don't hold shit, when it wants out it wants out!! :)

WI ~ Your so sweet!!!! I used to read to take my mind off things but then I never wanted to put the book down and never got anything done. I have some new books but no time right now to read. :( I do need to find a new refueling system.

Yesterday's 2nd nap did wonders for me. I had a great rest of the day. Woke up feeling good this morning course I have'nt went to work yet but I'm hoping to keep my head on straight for that. I'm just gonna keep telling myself to let it go!!!

Hugs to all and I hope we all have a good day!

Thanks Pixies!

Apparently I am not important enough to be informed about an application for a job at the other end of the country. He's already had a phone interview and he's meeting someone from there next week. Not exactly surprised that his career is more important than me, but how can I trust him if he went behind my back to do this?

I can't stop crying. God I'm so scared...

Hey PS, that really sucks, and is quite a "low blow". I'm truly sorry to hear about the situation you're facing. Hang in there.

Just think of all those times you've tried to keep ME positive ok?

Let me know if I can help any!

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((PixieSprite))))))))) )))))))))))))))))))))))


I wish I had a magic wand I could wave and make things better or be able to come up with some incredibly inspirational words that would do the trick. But, unfortunately all I can do is let you know you're in my thoughts and I'm wishing nothing but the very best for you. :console:

(((((PS)))))

I can't speak for Lake but from personal experience...I've interviewed for jobs and negotiated career changes without Mrs. WI's involvement. In my case, it was because I'd learned from the past. Getting her hopes up just to have them dashed (along with mine) was something I was trying to avoid. Mind you, the career change didn't involve different hours or moving our home elsewhere. It's easier to absorb being informed of a change when it doesn't affect your day to day life much.

I'm sorry that you're hurting.

(((pixiesprite)))

and (((soda))) too

I think I know what triggered my current funk...always kind of operate on the edge anyway, but I've been trying to maintain, for me anyway, an upbeat outlook...I put things off I know I should do, but I tire easily, my back starts hurting, or I'm just not in the mood...wife has been pressuring me to (among many other things) clean off the table next to my recliner so we can put up some kind of tree & other Xmas decorations, so I got myself motivated to do it...going thru all kinds of paperwork & junk mail that I put aside to deal with later, I found a grace period notice for my life insurance premium...obviously I had set it down to deal with, it got forgotten & buried...then the afternoon mail brought a notice that it has indeed expired because I dropped the ball...now I'm in a real funk, no life insurance, & I just know that getting a new policy is gonna be a steep price because of my age & health...& all the other crap that I've been putting off still looms large & mocks me as I move around the house...

((((((((((((((((((PixieSprite))))))))))))))))))

Sweetie, maybe it's like WI said, maybe he did'nt want you to worry over it. He could also be scared over the fact that this would make you unhappy. You've come this far, talk to him about how your feeling. Take a deep breath!!


Thanks wyndhy! :)

Been there too Scotz. Take one day at a time. Sometimes I just try and take one room a day. I've been putting off kiddo's room far too long and after Christmas it's gonna get done!!!!!

Hugs Scotz!

PS, I was thinking the same as WI...I hope it was just him sending out a feeler that he didn't want to bother you with yet...

Thanks darlin...my prob with the one room at a time policy is the room with the biggest mess is the basement...that's right, a full-size standup paved floor where I have a workshop, my music studio, my shipping materials for Ebay...& all the other crap that gets tossed out when we clean up the rooms upstairs...
I've tried to clean it up in the past, & it always turns into shifting the junk from one area to another...& now there's very few areas left to shift anymore around...

Stress over the retail job? What's that like? Why should I stress over the retail job? Just because of the idiot customers, the recalcitrant mall management, the fucking never-ending set of ads on the stand they stuck us next to, they way retail in general sucks out your social life, and even more so this time of year?

Nah, SoDak, I have no way of empathizing with you at the moment. You've lost me completely.

I think the worst thing about it all is that when the stress and depression hit, you don't have any energyor time to invest in making yourself feel better. I get so stressed and unhappy that I simply can't take actions to help myself - they seem like too much trouble.

((((soda)))) ~~ the one thing that I *can* make myself do that does help is deep breathing. Just a couple of minutes of deep breaths and some happy music are often enough to get me through the day...not feel better, but to get me through.

((((soda)))) ~~ PM me if you ever want to chat. :)

Thanks 1nutworld, IowaMan, WildIrish, wyndhy, sodaklostsoul and scotz!!!

I have taken a deep breath since that post, and things are starting to make more sense in my mind. Tonight we'll get to talk some more, so hopefully I can keep my calm and think logically then!

I've never met a real live Pixie before. :(

Be great if you guys got to be my first. :)

I have sat here and read through the posts and just wish that there was some way I could make everything better for everyone....but since that is not possible, just know that you are all in my thoughts and if you need me I'm just a PM away. "HUGS"

I'm unfunkified. I don't let myself stay there long! I'm trying to focus on the good things around me even if it's a tiny thing.

Soda, retail, AAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Just think about browsing Cliffton Hill.

^^^ :rofl:

LAMO^^^^^^! Thanks Scarecrow.

Awsome Lilith!!!! My major funk is gone........I keep telling myself to let things go and not stew over them. My bright spot is I have the 24th and 25th off!!

Awww T, your so sweet!!! I hope you still like frogs, *cough, box comming in the mail, cough*

IowaMan it's a long time to our next drive, never know, you could meet a Pixie before then. :)

PixieSprite, hope your haveing a good day and things are working out.

osuche thanks hun, Hope you trip is comming together.

gekkogeko make sure the toys are priced, that's the biggest seller ya know. :)~

Scotz just section off piles and start with one. LOL

Life couldn't be better because I haven't seen a single monkey in the sky all week. :loveshowe




I think for me, 'stress' manifests itself as frustration. First with myself for allowing it to happen.:hair: (at this point, I should know better how to prevent that shit in my life), Then with everyone and everything around me. :banghead: (If I can't deal with my problem, how the hell can I expect anybody else to?) I'm not much of a 'meditatie' person, so I tend to get swallowed deeper into the situation as it gets more out of my ability to deal with it. One of the few things that allows me to regroup and re-aim my thoughts is to do as WI mentioned. The words of a smart guy that works for me are, "Measured objectively, what a man can wrest from Truth by passionate striving is utterly infinitesimal. But the striving frees us from the bonds of the self and makes us comrades of those who are the best and the greatest." The mental recitation (not just the concept) seems to give me time and let me stand back enough to see that in the grand scheme, it (nor I or anything I'll ever do) is really not that important. The little step in front of me is the only one I can take.

:DThen I'm off to the races again, but the light at the end of the tunnel doesn't look like a freight train coming at me right now. :nana:

I just go kick someone's ass.... :D
 

I love my job, I love my job, I love my job....my stress is frustration with the people I work with.

Actually I do really love my job, it is the people I work with that I dislike. Unfortunately, we have a group of people who don't know how to turn a computer on, don't know how to print, don't know how to do anything with technology ---- and they are teachers!

Anyway... an employee who has NOTHING to do with technology and just pushes a broom around and complains to everyone and everybody about stuff he doesn't know about decided to make me his target this week. According to this person, I couldn't do anything right and he made sure he told everyone! I found out - this person told my oldest son who was waiting for me that I didn't know what I was doing, (not knowing this was my son and not knowing exactly who he was). Well, I tracked down this person and verbally kicked his ass. It was a bunch of bullshit... I broke my golden rule not to get in anyone's face when I am angry. Well, it paid off - because others this person told stuff too came forward and now that person is suspended for 3 days without pay.

Me me in a dark alley HAHAHAHAHAHA - or the Library.. rofl!

My jobs wouldn't be bad at all if it weren't for PEOPLE!!! They're stressed... they make me stressed......... and it ALL goes away 12/25th..amazing... all I have to do is make it to that date each year (yes I do retail too) without killing anyone and I'm in the clear!! So only 1 more week folks!!!!

Oh then the stress of lack of income during Jan-Feb-March...ahhhhhh the joys of being self employed!!

(((((((((( soda & PS)))))))))) ooooooooooo, that was fun in my mind!!!! :D

((((( HUGS ))))) to everyone struggling right now whether you've shared on this thread or not.

I know I'm struggling this year trying to get into a more positive frame of mind. Nothing really wrong ... just kind of blah. I guess it's why I like Thanksgiving ... seems like a far less stressful holiday. :(

i know it sounds trite but when i'm feeling down, i pretend i'm not. ususally, after a while, i realize i'm not pretending anymore.

((((hugs))) beautiful people.

My main blahs are essentially money and time.

I don't really dig this time of year so much because other people are (seemingly) enjoying it more than I am or they have the space in their lives to enjoy it like it should be enjoyed.

Don't get me too wrong...I'm not a TOTAL grinch about the holidays, just I wish I had better space in my life for it. I have struggle, battle and fight to have a good time for a few hours out of a day/night. Then when I have that good time, it seems like I end up paying for it more than I care to think about. I'm spending money I should be sitting on, but if I don't enjoy myself somehow I'll go schizoid.

Doesn't seem to be enough time to do anything (I really want). However, since everyone has the same 24 hours in a day to live in, I know I just have to restructure things so that I have the time to do things. It's just that damn doing that gets me stumped.

Gah. In addition to all the "normal" stress that I go through this time of year, a freind of mine died early last Friday. Too much stuff to take care of to get to his memorial service tonight, too.

Shit.

Yes, I'm venting. So sue me.

(((((gg)))))) ~~ sorry to hear about your friend's passing

I'm also sorry for your loss of a friend, gekkogecko. :console:

Me too. Very sorry to hear of your loss gekkogecko. My very best wishes to you and to your friend's family.

Sorry to hear that GG.

Chey ~ Sometimes breaking your golden rule is necessary. We had a cashier like your broom man, was a good thing she quit cause my boss was gonna turn her in for harassment to the company hot line.

Coaster ~ Self employment has to be a bigger stress yet. Yup, Jan will really suck for us but then it will be nice and slow so all the new resets can be done. LOL at what's in your mind. ;)

DB ~ Thanksgiving is less stressfull, so much in fact that it gets overlooked in retail. :( We got a little bit of Harvest stuff in with Halloween but it did'nt last long. Everyday there would be several people in asking if we had Thanksgiving napkins and other items. If our company was smart they would carry more items instead of wondering why sales were low at that time of year. Put on some Christmas music and have some eggnog and chase them blahs away. ;)

wyndhy ~ Sometimes that works for me when I'm at work. :D

Irezumi Kiss ~ I agree, time and money are always a big issue. There should be extra hours given this time of year. :)

Hugs to all!!!!

Maybe if you just had a safe place to hide the bodies...