I have been in front of the television most of the day...

I have cried with the families......I have gotten chills down my spine seeing the Towers fall again.......I even laughed at a woman yawing on televisiom at ground zero...........but most of all I prayed....

I prayed for the Hero's of 9-11...and to me...that is every single life lost on that tragic day....

I want to end this thread by saying this was NEVER about me! I know a thread would have sprung up if I'd have never posted this one. I am not a patient person and when I get a notion I act on it with fervor. I have this inner push/pull thing that says......I MUST do this now! And so I posted this thread prior to the day of memorium to give everyone a chance to get a feeling or thought across. I wanted to make a place to put down your feelings...and mine!

I could barely sleep last night and I woke especially early today. I actually got right out of bed. I am a snooze button slammer but I didn't even touch the snooze button today. I showered immediately (never do that...I coffee and groan for bout a half hour). Fed the cat and let him out and reluctantly turned on the television. I had a love/hate relationship with the TV this morning.

I watched some coverage of the nations memorial and I started to cry........I had to leave the room but I left the TV on. I was like a push-me-pull-you! You know........the Dr. DoLittle llama that had a head at both ends! I didn't know if I was coming or going. I pretended I was ok and said goodbye to my hubby. Whew! He was gone and I cried again. And then I wondered......what were his thoughts of today? Too late, he was gone for the day.

I came here to Pixies.

I perused the forums and listened periodically to the news in the background. I PM'd my messages and I went to chat and found a few friends to chat with but they were in and out and I didn't want to bring anyone down. One friend and I chatted about everything but the days actual events and for a while I was grateful for the relief from emotion. We laughed........little did he know I was crying too!

I made myself late for work as I had no urge to leave this house or computer for it's safety to me at the moment. But I had to finally leave. I just gave a polite excuse! I never do that! I love chat and I always give a long speech as to why I am leaving and when I will be back.....even if no one cares...I just could never leave a room without proper goodbyes! Momma taught me better!!!!!! If I ever do leave fast...it's an emergency of some sort.

I gathered my stuff for work....or so I thought! I arrived at work with a book I thought would be of interest of the days memorial and I left it in the lunchroom for anyone who wanted to look through it. I had my lunch and my truck keys. But I forgot my purse and I forgot my attache with all my "meeting" papers in it. I didn't have any notes for the day and I didn't have my wallet with "my life" in it. I realized...I am in a daze! I had to snap out of this.

At lunch I swore I was just going to go home, but I was needed and I had to stay. At 9:55am I shut down my machine and I turned off my radio and I shut down my computer I went outside for the nations "Moment of Silence"......and the church bells rang! I looked up and to my surprise everyone from my company had joined me. I didn't even know that they knew of the time frame for the reverence. I cried again!

I have to make this clear......I am not crying for me! I am expressing what I thought every human would express in the eye of such a horrific event. I still, at this moment, cannot believe there are people in this world that could act and react to this event with qualification of a job well done.

This day is done.....I am still very sad........but I feel we have done our job as a nation of pride. And I feel that although I will never forget this day (and it's reason for being from one year ago)........I will not dwell!

(((((((((((((((((Lixy)))))))))))))))))))

db......So sorry hun!...I was babbling and had to reread this thread to realize you had posted again. You said it all in that the significance of this day is that we had a year to let it settle in. So high was the emotion that day and that week and that month just thereafter! Now, in retrospect, I can actually see that I did indeed touch on the fact that "they" really do not know that what they did is horrifically (is that a word) wrong! I've no sympathy for their ignorance, but just more tolerence for my uncertainty!

Diva.......I reiterate! I was babbling and I had no idea there would still be new replies. I know the sorrow....and yes, I can say that there was a moment or two when I smiled and actually laughed at some of the footage of the days events. If I could have....I would have been right there in front of the TV all day too! I know the compulsion. TY so much for your reply!

(((((((((((((((Diva))))))))))))))))))

TY Sweety!!

(((((((((HUGS FOR EVERYONE HERE)))))))))) too!

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Lest we forget ...

Prayers go out again for those that gave their lives back on 9-11-2001. I hope we never forget those innocents that were killed or the brave men and women that tried to rescue people still in the twin towers. So many lives lost due to the cowardly acts of a few deranged people. May God have mercy on all those who lost there lives.

I heard a piece on NPR this morning, describing today being a new service day, and some of the various projects that have taken place. The intent is to not only remember the tragic events that happened, but also the incredible acts of selfless kindness and compassion that day and in the days that followed. It was a nice reminder that there is good in the world and that people care.

I heard lots of people use today as a "pay it forward" day. How do you combat fear, love. Love always wins.