I swear to god this whole situeation has me so fucking angry already. Why the fuck am I putting up with this shit. This is fucking rediculous. I dont deserve to be treated like this.

I just told her to fuck off and that we are through. She can go find another sucker to fuck in the ass with all her bullshit.

You like it. That has become clear. Glutton for punishment. Some people are not happy unless they are in turmoil. If you didn't like it you would have walked away.

It is because I basically cant live without her and no matter how hard i try i keep coming back because I guess I am stupid. I am just fucking stupid.

It sucks though that I cant do any better.

Only through lack of trying.

How exactly can you not live without her?

Do you share an organ?

Does she support you financially?

Does she supply you with the air you inhale?

Thought not.

If she were to be run over by a bus tomorrow, you'd HAVE to live without her, so what you're saying is, you choose to live a miserable life with her in it, as opposed to a happy one without her.

Yes, it's tough at first, but you get used to it, you learn from your own mistakes (that's not to say it's all your fault - sometimes the mistake you make is choosing the wrong person in the first place) you begin to heal and pretty soon (a few months or so) you find yourself in a strong position where you feel you can get out there and meet someone else for a meaningful relationship without all of the baggage of the previous one.

When that time comes, you'll find you don't need to be posting threads here saying 'How do I meet women - I'm too shy' because things will just happen naturally.

Stop being a victim. You only have one life, so stop wasting it. Being angry is pointless. I know you're hurting, but that's just part of life. The trick is not to keep on getting hurt by the same person over and over again. If you saw one of your friends going through this you'd tell him to grow some self respect and stop wallowing in self pity. It's demeaning and singularly unattractive to everyone else, which is inhibiting your ability to have a normal life.

Don't waste your energy hating her, or even communicating with her. Use it all on helping yourself to heal and learn from this experience. Being bitter and miserable is the lazy way of dealing with this - it's easier than moving on which is why you're here all of the time whining about how hard life has been for you. Trust me, if this is the most painful thing you've ever had to go through, you ain't in the least prepared for the rest of life. It gets tougher - a whole fuck of a lot tougher so you may as well learn to deal with it sooner rather than later.

Can someone let me know when the pity party is over? As a singleton, let me tell you life does exist without a mate. Singledom is not a death sentence unless YOU choose to let it be. You do NOT need a mate to survive, unless YOU choose it to be so. There are many people in this world that live life without a mate and are successful, productive humans.

So let me know when you've grown tired of the DRAMA you are perpetuating and the self wallowing pity party you are throwing - then you might actually start to read the plethora of advice given in this thread and realize that your behavior has been self destructive, self serving, and attention seeking.