Yea we basically argued all morning in which time she tried to blame me for everything. So annoying that she thinks she is perfect and that nothing is her fault. lol hell she even said why should she treat me well when she treats pieces of crap like a piece of crap. Just so wonderful I tell ya to know that someone you were in total love with thinks you were a piece of crap. P.S. it looks like we arent even going to be friends anymore. This is because I asked her if she asked me to go to this cover launch because she needed a ride afterwards. It was suspecious since she talked about her not having a ride 1 minute after asking me to go.

Damn I swear I cant believe how nasty our conversation has gotten. My last statement ever to her is this. "And just so you know I am sorry for every single time I hurt you and for this entire thing today. I know that will mean nothing to you now but maybe later. I really didnt mean any of this. It is just an excalationg argument and it seems tempers won. Well have a good life. I with you all the best and true love and happiness." We really got nasty at arguing but it was a match to see who could be worse. Basically that last statement i feel clears my conscience of everything I said and lets her know how I feel. Well it may not mean anything now but who knows maybe down the line it will to her. I really do hope she finds happiness and love. I know it wont be with me but I hope who she does find it with will make her happy and be good for her. Thank you for listening goodbye.

Simple Together
you've been my golden best friend
now with post-demise at hand
I can't go to you for consolation
cause we're off limits during this transition
this grief overwhelms me
it burns in my stomach
and i can't stop bumping into things
i thought we'd be simple together
i thought we'd be happy together
thought we'd be limitless together
i thought we'd be precious together
but i was sadly mistaken
you've been my soulmate and then some
i remembered you the moment i met you
with you i knew god's face was handsome
with you i saw fun and expansion
this loss is numbing me
it pierces my chest
and i can't stop dropping everything
i thought we'd be sexy together
thought we'd be evolving together
i thought we'd have children together
i thought we'd be family together
but i was sadly mistaken
if i had a bill for all the philosophies i shared
if i had a penny for all the possibilities i presented
if i had a dime for every hand thrown up in the air
my wealth would render this no less severe
i thought we'd be genius together
i thought we'd be healing together
i thought we'd be growing together
thought we'd be adventurous togheter
but i was sadly mistaken
thought we'd be exploring together
thought we'd be inspired together
i thought we'd be flying together
thought we'd be on fire together
but i was sadly mistaken

Feelings like this are completely natural, rzande1...its a cleansing of the soul

The world has moved on...and you have to move with it.

The very best of good luck to you!

OK yea this is hard. I deleted all her text messages and it was really painful....

Well the only advise I can give is from personal experience...


Take baby steps...

1. Crawl into bed and cry. I mean really cry like you did when you were a baby.

2. Sleep cause if you dont give your body time to recover from the cry you will have a head ache.

3.Pull yourself out of bed and get in the shower, and if you need to cry some more. Then get out and clean your self up. Shave your face, put cologne on and comb your hair. Call a good friend and see if they would like to join you on an outing...walking, going to a bar, or just a cup of coffee someplace you have never been with her. Something to get you out of the house. Promise yourself you wont talk about anything remotely involving her. Even if you see a flower, a brick. a piece of paper or something reminds you of her dont say anything just smile and keep going.

4. Try not to talk to her...that seems to help more in getting out of the rut that you find yourself in. Since you talked with her today, dont talk to her tommorrow, and if you MUST then call the next day....and not the next. Put more time in between the times you call and that will make it easier too.
You seem to be talking out of anger now to her and that wont be good for either of you...your just hurting yourself and her.


Life goes on. It may take some time but it will get easier. The person you were ment to be with is waiting for you to get out there and find them. But you have to get over this...it is a process...we all have to just go through it bit by bit....each day it will get easier to breathe and find something good about the day.


Just my thoughts/I hope they help.

Been there done that.
Natalie

So now she is all appologizing to me and blaming herself etc. it is rather interesting. I wonder if she is now thinking oh crap what did she do and the results are shocking her.

the problem is you are not 'moving on' but must; it is an unhealthy relationship for both of you. i would take some of txgrneyes' advice farther and say don't try to not talk to her, just don't talk to her. period. i say again, it is not healthy this relationship you have had with this girl, at least what you have shared here and on other threads.

everyone has unpleasant things they must face and endure, and you'll have a lot more after this one. don't dwell and don't drown in self pity, ire and depression. pick your self up and move on. good luck

I know I know. I really need to move on but there still is this stupid hope in my mind that we will get back together.

Well stomp on that hope!! While you continue to live in the past there is NO future for you!

I've followed along and have yet to figure out...

What's in it for you?

I guess what is in it for me is that I have someone there for me in my corner. Someone that .....well that is a friend and that i get......wow ok good question. I guess besides the sex and stuff like that I guess someone to care about.

The simple questions are always the most difficult to answer.

"What do you want to do with your life?" :confused:
"What would make you happy?" :confused:
"Welcome to McDonalds...Can I take your order please?" :huh:



Wouldn't it be better if they cared too?



That goes for the "someone to care about" part as well as the sex. ;)

Good advice

Ok...I have tried to be nice about this but dude you are jumping on my last couple of nerves. So if you want to jump get on a trampoline.


Irish had a good question....what is in it for you? I can answer that for you....drama! that is all. You are living your own soap opera. So just get the clicker and turn that off. Then step back and laugh cause we all know what happens in soaps. By Friday everything is ok. That dont happen in real life.


Also, remember this ......


EXES ARE EXES FOR A REASON!

Yeah, my ex can be all nice when he wants something but when I need something from him he aint got time for it. It is all about him.

If you are wanting to get back at her not with her then act like all is ok. When she calls act busy. Tell her you dont have time to talk your on your way out with a friend. Yeah it might be a lie but damn SHE is gettin off just knowing you are pineing away for her. Sitting at home so when SHE gets the urge to call SHE can and SHE knows your gonna be there when SHE wants to talk. If she comes to the door...grab your coat and act like your in a rush to get somewhere...she doesn't have to know you just go down the street or around the block just that your to busy for her.

I know that sounds mean but when you do decide to leave her alone and move on....just do it. You wont be any happier until you try to be. Dude you have some good advise here, not just mine but everybodies, so just take it.

Either tinkle or get off the potty. It is that simple.