I have to say, it's just lovely to see everyone bein gso helpful. Your in good hands Sexkitten... such good advice.

I read a book once entitled "Freedom to Fail". Once I accepted the premise of the book, I realized that all those things I used to feel were my fault were not in reality. I then stopped apologizing for things that were out of my control. I control my own life and nothing else really. If other folks have a problem with my foibles, mistakes, quirks, and eccentricies - to hell with them! Sounds a bit egotistical I know, but I have to live my life according to my own standards. If my standards don't quite measure up to someone else's expectations that is their problem and I will no longer apologize for my life to anyone.

Having said all that - you should be comfortable with who you are. Once you are then everyone else needs to accept the new you and you can put a smile on your pretty face and go on and never more have to apologize unless you really have a reason to.

So much for the "Dime Store" philosophy - here's hoping you get past this phase soon!

Thank you guys so much for all the advice and the help, I really truly appreciate it =D I'm working on not apologizing for every little thing, unless I truly think there is a need to do so. So far it hasn't worked (LOL!) but here's to getting through it all with the greatest people anyone could ever know online ^^

<3 you all,
Kitten

hiya sorry to bug in here. But just wanted to also offer my help here too, another thing i've done all too often. so if you want to try and have an indepth talk just grab my email at [email protected]

Erm as for the SAD thing (Season affective Disorder) what happens when such as in winter months you become slightly more depressed. I could go into detail but i think you could learn more from looking into it yourself. But best thing to do is indeed get a light, it's a form of therapy is to try and simulate as much natural light as you can, in order to try and kind of create and external zeitgaber.

Sorry psychology student here, and it's just stuff i've remembered from A-level that may help.

Thanks =) I've added you to msn ^^