Thank you all for your replies...and the hugs. Lixy you're right..alcohol and 'what if's" do not go together. lol..In a sober frame of mind I know I made the right decision. I have always said the things that you go through in your life are what make you who are today. And I kinda like me..and wouldn't wanna be someone else... It's hard though, when that "what if" pops into your mind... But Lilith, you're absolutely right..looking at things from that perspective helps. One thing I like to do is when I have a "what if" or a "coulda been"..when I'm pondering those annoying little forks in the road, is to reflect on all things I wouldn't be..people I wouldn't know..or places I'd not have gone had I not taken the path I chose. Geeze...what the hell would I be doing with my life had I not decided to sit down at the puter the day I found Pixies..lol. Seriously though...even finding this site has changed my life..just one of the things being helping me decide what I want to do with the rest of life....write. So anyway...lol enough of my blathering...

(((hugs))) to you all
~Eliza

He he he...If my aunt had balls she would be my uncle! :p :D :jester: