LixyChick |
05-09-2003 11:12 PM |
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Originally posted by jennaflower
fears.. I have lots of them... but my worst fears are.....
The fear that I will someday have to deal with my parents dying (it is more like a natural unavoidable expectation.. that I dread)
The fear that I will be alone.... til the end
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Please hear me when I say this, jenna.........(and ANYONE with both or one parent still living)..........I'ma gonna preach!
No matter what the stress you might feel from them.........no matter what the timing on a visit is.........no matter how much they try to instill that motherly/fatherly guilt in you ( and you know the guilt I mean) no matter if you think you can handle it or you think it will NEVER happen.........NO MATTER WHAT............
Each and everytime you hug them........hug them with all that you have!
We are born to only two parents. Adoption aside..........we get what we get! On our parents side....they get what they get. They do what they think is the best they can do. We try and ignore all they say.......till we are old enough to realize they actually knew their shit all along!
When you get to this point in your life......take a moment to say thank you to your parents............for actually getting though to you......no matter what they thought of you in the "60's.....70's......80's".......90's............let them know you finally "get it".......and hug the stuffins outta them!
A fear of death is so very understandable, jenna.............but if you prepare yourself..........(may sound weird, but it's a proven fact by my own experiences)........by just taking a moment to picture the time when you will have to look back on your own behavior at the time of losing a parent.............and imagine if you and he/she will have a peaceful feeling about it. Just be you with an extra special "ok.....I give up" kinda attitude!
Try and remember...............each and every day has something new to offer. Death and birth are part of those days........no matter if it's in your world or apart from where you are......it happens! What we do with that day is up to us.........no one else.......just us! And we have to live with that decision from that time on!
OK........I'm done and probably overdone ....as usual!
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