i haven't actually squirted yet, but in the past month I have felt very close. Though I have to admit the prospect scares me a bit. The first time I was masturbating with a very big dildo, and as I was cumming i felt like I was going to pee. The problem was once I came, the feeling went away completely. Didn't have to go to the little girl's room. So I did some research, and I think that is what it is. It's happened quite a bit since then (Monday night in bed with my guy in fact). I have to say though I'm having a hard time just letting go, and letting it happen. I'm afraid of the mess, and afraid of the prospect that it's not cum. I guess I'll keep you all posted as I find out more.

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"Yes I did go to him,
but completely against my will,
and yes he did things to me,
things of which I dream of still,"

-Cowboy Junkies "Black-eyed Man"