wow, isnt it strange how much can change in two months.

Since i posted this my life has been through alot, my grandmother died after suffering from alzheimers and i made a promise to myself because of that. I decided that i owe something to the hospital ward who cared for my gran in the last years of my life and thought of something to do. In two months time i am running a personal sponsored marathon to raise money for the ward, this means that for the past month and a half ive been training like mad and ive lost alot of weight (im still not in the shape that i want to be but hey, you cant have everything), the girl who i was secretly in love with is now my girlfriend, she approached me not long after i posted this, asking me whether i wanted to go out (she'd split with her boyfriend the week before i posted, didnt know) and one thing led to another.

We havent had sex yet, but both she and i feel that the kind of relationship we're in, that isnt important. I've just never felt better, im fit(ter), i have a girl who (as near as i can tell) loves me like no other girlfriend ive had did. We just lay down together of hours on end talking and hugging and everything.

I know its far to early in the relationship to determine whether either of us 'love' the other, but its just enthusing me with the kind of joy thats been missing in my life for the last number of years.