damn grumbleguts.......believe me ,,,,i know how you feel........im in the same boat.....my dad in in a nursinghome from having heartstrokes and one heartattack in the past 2 years.....not much of our family is around him and he has given up to....wont eat and is just wanting to die.....unfortunately i am having to wait till june to go see him....when i call him i try to cheer him up with stories about his grandkids but i dont think it does much good...
im still trying to deal with it and the fine folk here in pixies have really helped......and do try lilith's shoulder.....she was instrumental in getting me out of my depressed mood and back here....among my friends....we all will be here for ya.....to let you yell scream cry vent some anger.......anything and anytime dude.....remember.....you're surrounded by friends here.....dont forget that......

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Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one..Bruce Lee
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