I take it from your reply that the 2 of you are no longer together. But fear not my cowboy friend. This to will pass. I am on my second marriage myself. It seems like the feelings will never die and all hopes are lost. But trust me they're not. You must decide that you are stronger than that and that you will not allow her to have the power of you of controling the emotions that you use in day to day life. You are loved by friends and family and no one could ever ask for more.

Sumen