Why? I don't have work in the morning, and it's not like you're here right now. If you were in my bed, I would definitely be in it.

silly boy

I'll bet I could.




I know I could. :nod:

Just remember, turn about is fair play. And I always play fair. ;)

turn about is fair play, but! if you turn around, it's foreplay!!!!

Mmmmm, buttttttt... :D

She plays the fairs, all the burlesque houses on the circuit and the local table dancing bars. :undies:






:doorpeek:

Hey, the local county fair opens here in a week and a day...

kill me.....please... at least my head will stop hurting
 

I don't believe in "the one" I'm a skeptic. forever doesn't last as long as it used to
I believed in it a long time ago..... but the glass was smaller then easier to fill; now it's less than half full there are days I don't know whats wrong with me. Like spending time with Lord Snow..... I see him every other weekend, lately I have had a hard time leaving dry-eyed for my 120 mile drive home can't sleep sunday night think about him all day monday by weds. I'm usually starting to wonder if I should go back and see him again or if I should just break up with him because I'm afraid he's making a mistake in settling for me at this point in his life, no matter for how long. Thinking about trying to convince him to find a girl closer to his own age and closer to him so they can actually date without him having to go home and sleep with her. I know I'm not healthy and he shouldn't start with someone as damaged as I am. When I feel like I'm starting to care too much my first instinct is to bolt, or press my partner to. By the time I have my next 3 day weekend ( every other) I'll be craving his touch so bad it's almost physically painful but it seems like I'm numb between times.

Although my addiction might have helped with that I buried my discontent with my previous relationship in becoming a pill popper any painkiller or muscle relaxer my mom the sickly one had lots of pretty pills including her Ultram (tramadol) .... taking more than 16 50 mg tabs of Ultram every day lets ya feel almost nothing..... I'm on my 6th night/day without them.the migraines have almost passed. the sad thing is that I'm crashing at my folks' place so it's not like I can throw the pills out so I face the temptation every time I walk past the kitchen....sigh. damaged.

He's an adult, and should "start" with someone he thinks is worthwhile spending time with. Maybe that really is you. Hey, it's his decision to make, preferably with your input.



Maybe put them in a lock box and give the keys to your folks? Would that help?

smile. he says it was his choice just as it was my choice to be with him...... I just hate for him to make a choice he'll regret, even wasting 2 or 3 months is too much if he's not happy. I'm just glad that I feel he is open and honest with me.



as far as locking them up......I'm trying to get away with this and only admit it to the family I like. She hasn't noticed or atleast hasn't said anything and I don't want to admit it to her because I'm pretty sure after being on them for more than 10 years shes addicted to them too. I don't see how she could take them for so long and not be.

Easier to plot than to live, but...
 

You already have the upper hand in so much as you recognize, admit and are dealing with something you know is messing with your mind and emotions. That said, you know any major decisions now are not going to be true or accurate. The issues you are dealing with is an important one that deals with not only your future, but someone else's too. Therefore it has to be right.

You first will have to devote all your attention to dealing with the chemicals that are stifling your judgment. If he is what you believe him to be and what you want, he'll stand by and be there when you both can deal with undistorted facts and the contradicting emotions that make up humans.

That's a big enough challenge in itself. :rofl: I am well aware plotting logic is very different than applying it, but it does give you a direction. :shrug:



:2cents:

Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans - John Lennon

Kyttn,

If you start trying to make Lord Snow's decisions for him, you risk driving him away.

I'm no expert, but the two of you seem fine, even if just for the present. Live for now.

Damaged goods? We all carry a few dents and scrapes, it's called a personality. Don't sweat it.